SUNDAYS...AND I AM SICK.

Great start of the weekend I supposeably think. I am so sick right now, my whole body hurts like there's no tomorrow. My throat is extremely killing me, and I am upset because I think I really have to go to school tomorrow. Sucks the fact that I have my friend's paper work that I need to give to her, if not I would of stayed home and just sleep like a baby. My head hurts so bad it's not even funny, I keep having the dumbest things on my mind that I am kinda getting mad at myself for even spending time with those thoughts...

In the other hand, Ahh I am feeling kinda cute on my inside's, Friday was special. I had no school and I am recently talking to the cutest guy on earth, But it's too early to predict what can or cannot happen. I am talking to him secretly, only one of my friends know. I think that was the biggest mistake ever, it's not that I don't trust him or anything, I just know that he's friends with my ex boyfriend and he might open his mouth to him, But I doubt it because he knows how horrible my ex boyfriend is. ANYWHO, Back to this wonderful guy, We are getting to know each other, I can't tell you how adorable he is, he has everything in ONE. He's so cute, in so many ways. Makes me smile a lot, just only two days and it feels like the longest, We stood on the phone for more than 5 hours without hanging up. He's 20 years old, does videos on youtube and is really down to earth, loves to dance, (I totally seeing his videos and is an amazing dancer). He's perfect, so far so good :). I want him to be my valentine <3, he agreed :).

- To be continued :)

Also on Friday, I decided to go to Church. I had so much fun, it's like everytime I go to church, I find the peace I need, and the calm for my nerves and thoughts. My favorite cousin invited me, (Which I thank her so much), She kept telling me to go and visit, I keep telling her I am so shy to go and stuff, until I decided to go. As soon as I stepped myself in those doors, I felt that God's presence was in that place, you just feel the harmony and happiness inside of that church, is so united and heart welcomed. I enjoyed the service all along, I wished I could of stayed longer, but I will try to keep coming by and stuff. I had a special conversation through Gabriella, (Church member). We always have true moments, and God uses her a lot to give me the best advices, and also to tell me things will be okay. I know he wants me to come more often, and I am sure I will do that not because he wants me to, but my heart really wants me to. I have so much to give and so much to offer, ugh everytime I speak and type about these things I get to remind myself of the days I used to go to church everytime and participate in everything :(.
I can't wait for my beginning at church, I am trying to get there somewhere and somehow. <3

GOD IS LOVE <3
XOXO SHARRRRRRRRLIEEEE :)

I am SUFFERING ;;

I am in a stage of life, were I can't find nowhere consolation. Were you want to sit down and cry it all off, and let that one person hold you tight, while you suffer it all out?. I never have that in my life, only sometimes but it doesn't last as much as I wish it could. Everything hurts me, my life is hurting me, my decisions, the things I am choosing in life are causing a huge impact of pain inside of my soul. I know I am paying the consequences for each and every mistake I put myself through. But half of these things I know for a fact I don't deserve them. I have my moments were I do explote towards people, but when I know on my insides the fact that I know I am right... It kills me, mentally and physically. There's moments were I ask myself why do I even care about people who doesn't care for me back. I never get to learn my lesson, it just don't leave me alone. I could sit here and explain this whole entire sadness but it won't make a change, no one will care either will understand.

TO BE CONTINUED...

XOXO Sharliee <3

Cronic Life... I guess

Today is my last day to actually breathe, I go back to school unfortunately tomorrow. I get caught up in pressure easily when I sit here and talk to myself about school, and what I don't want to go through when it gets down be about school. I woke up so late today, last night I broke night, watching "The Ashlee Simpson Show" through my iPod, I was so entertained and inspired by her craziness and who she really is. I asked myself while watching the show, that why God couldn't give me that kind of personality, she really don't care about nothing in life, Gosh she was so great. My mom and I stood awake for the longest, she got tired at 3 O`clock in the morning, and I decide it to stay awake ever since. I got really exhausted as soon as my iPod died, haha, it was 8 in the morning. Woke up at five O`clock and my mom kept bugging me `til I finally opened my eyes and said hello to this unwonderful Monday.

While I was in my sister's room (Which I could have sworn it was mines), I recieved a phone call from "Lincoln Tech". I was so excited when one of the assistants called me up and told me if I was interesed in joining the team for a better tomorrow, I was thinking a lot of ideas because I love cooking and baking ANYTHING that has to do with cooking. But Lincoln Tech offers me anything about the Medical/Medic industry. That's something I am very interested at. He told me once I start there I'll be studying and getting everything together as soon as possible. I was asking myself does my grades really matter at this moment?, He told me they offer scholarships and I have to bring 25$ in order to buy my paper work. It's cool because the assistant told me that once I get into what ever I am studying I'll be able to work for six weeks in any local hospital in Philadelphia. And the best part if I do good, I could get hired at that very moment!. I was like I am so loving this idea, seems a bit complicated but he told me he's gonna be there in case I get stuck in a situation. I can get free items like their books, a book bag and school materials isn't that thoughtful?. I am excited for my appointment is this coming up Thursday at 4O`clock, to get some of my paper work early enough in order to get early scholarships and also my financial aid going on.

This was an interesting beginning of this lonely empty week ;;

I want to see what's really next... Hmmm

P E A C E , LOVE & H a p p i n e s s :)

-Shar XOXO